As I sit here

As I sit in my house typing this entry the only thing that is truly on my mind right now is concern for my child. At his Dr's apt. Yesterday he had a phycotic break. He is now in a treatment facility for the next 5-7 days. I know that he is in the best place for people to help him. He is not a bad child, he just needs some extra help. I don't know what is causing his problems but I know they are there. I keep most of his mental issues close to home so that no one looks poorly on my son. He is just a child trying to deal with adult issues in his mind. I am 32 and still struggle from day to day. I can only imagine what it is like for him in his mind everyday. Allowing him to be placed in the hospital is the hardest thing as a parent I have ever done. He is alone and scared right now. I only want him to be happy and I can't do that alone. I don't care what people say about me as a person, but DO NOT judge my son without knowing what is going on with him. He is a child and deserves to be treated like any other child with love and understanding. I am heartbroken that I had to walk out of that hospital last night without my oldest child, but my mind if not my heart knows that these people should be able to help me find the child I know is in there.