I am an aunt again

Well I am going away for the weekend to see my sweet new niece. My younger sister had her baby a week ago Fri. I am taking my children up to their great-grandparents for the weekend until my x can pick up the twins. I am going to see if I can't help my sister out for a couple of days. The kids are all excited because mamaw and papaw spoil them all rotten.

I haven't heard from my husband in a couple of days. I know he is busy and am waiting paiently. We are on the last legs of this deployment. I am standing by my hero and waiting for his safe return the sooner the better. As far as I know his hearing is doing much better. He should have his sargent's stripes hopefully by July.

My moods seem to be ok for now. I am not swinging constantly right now. I have lost a little bit of weight and am starting to see that I am truly an attractive person. Everyday closer to the end of this deployment are lifting my mood that much higher. It will be over soon, I can't wait.

What a mess

I have been talking to my husband almost everday sence he got back in touch with me. I guess he is doing well we aren't talking about his work. The kids are almost out of school only 2 more days. All 3 are going on to the next grade. The twins are going into 5th grade and my oldest is going 6th grade. I was so worried about the game of neighborhood roulette and getting bad neighbors. The old neighbors are the ones causing all the rucuss in our area. All hell is breaking loose in the neighborhood because of cheating and pregnancies while her hubby is in Iraq.

Finally heard from him

I finally heard from my hubby after his first mission sense he lost the hearing in his left ear. I almost missed him, I was on the front porch. He was angry about something but he wouldn't tell me what it was. He seemed to be in a decent mood. He read his emails and that made him happy. I am feeling a little better now that I know he is alright.

Down day again

Today was another day to add to the list of down days in this deployment. I am not sure as to why I am so down today. I still haven't heard from my hubby, but I know that it will happen sometime this week. He is at 3 weeks out of contact so anytime now he will get ahold of me. I really need to hear his voice. Last deployment with the deuce he had time to call and write me this time is so different. I am stronger this deployment but these month long silence periods are really driving me batty. The day was actually pretty nice there was plenty of sun until the afternoon rain that was predicted. Even after the rain it turned out sunny and warm so overall a good day. Two of my kids are playing outside right now. All I want to do for the most part is stay in the house away from everyone else.

Happy mother's day

Well today is mother's day. I hope all of ya'lls day was wonderful. I had hoped that my husband would be able to call but he was to busy. My best friend Morgana was sick today so I took up her tradition of tagging the neighbor's porches to tell them Happy mother's day. It always cool to make people smile when their loved ones are away. I went and had dinner at my sister-in-laws house. She made her yummy beef and homemade noodles. My twins seem to be getting sick Jared came home from his aunt's and napped for 2 hours this afternoon. All in all today was a pretty good day.

What should I do?

Still no word from my hubby, I didn't expect any. I am almost at 3 weeks with no word. I should have just over a week till I hear from him. I really need to hear his voice right now. Yesterday was a really bad day. As the kids were walking home from school I got a call from the principal. My oldest boy got into a fight at school( he is in 5th grade) he struck a girl because she threw wood chips at him. Not only did he hit this girl but he caused a bruise on her back. So he has been suspended from school for another 3 days for the second time in a month. I have taken every thing from him except his bed and his blankets. I called on the MP's to come out and scare him lot of good that did. The male officer came out talked to my son and basically said it was ok for JT to strike the girl, because she instigated with him. As my children walked up my younger son was crying quite hard so of course I was concerned. I asked what was wrong and the group of kids that all walk home together started talking all at once. Turns out my younger boy was jumped by 2 boys on the way home from school because he was talking with his friends. The bigger of the boys punched my son in the ear approximately 8 times causing a small scratch on my sons eye from his glasses. I took him straight back to the school. The principal called the other boys mom. My son stated that he had cuffed the other child in the back of the head after the boy had hit him so now I have two suspended boys for Monday. I just don't know what to do anymore. I am not punishing my younger son because all he did was try to defend himself, but my older son is a different story. Any suggestions would be helpful.

Better day

Today was a better day for me. I still haven't talked to my hubby. I sent him out a letter and an email, so I have told him in abunch of ways that I love him and support him in everything he does and is. It rained again today but I was up early and had an up day. I went to get my sons meds, rode my bike a bit, talked to my new neighbor and helped Morgana to mow the yards.

A bad day for me

Where I have been diagnosed as bipolar I have some good days and some bad days. Today was a really bad day. I have noticed when it is dark outside I get down quicker than on a sunny day. I was able to stay upbeat through the storms last night but today's just put me in a crummy mood. The only thing I have done most of the day is listen to music and stay in my room away from everyone. I didn't spend much time with my best friend Morgana today. I haven't heard from Jeff in a couple of weeks now and that always affects my moods. My oldest child is still flunking reading and he doesn't seem to care at all. I called his teacher today to see about a project he has to finish before the end of the year. All she could tell me was that he still has an F in reading and that she can tell me a ball park on the rest of his grades next week. I have been crying off and on all day over nothing. I have had a bunch of fairly even days I guess today is just a really down day. Hopfully it will pass by tomorrow morning.

Another day down

Well one more day closer to time for my hubby to come home. I keep sending e-mails to him even though he isn't reading them. I have been trying to keep up on doing exercises to work out any and all frustrations I might have on a day to day bases. I want to look nice for my hubby when comes home.

Another Sunday down

Well another week down. I believe today makes 2 Sundays in a row with no word from my hubby. Evidently he was right that he wouldn't be able to talk to me for a month. I guess I got spoiled where he was talking to me almost every day after he got hurt. I know that I should be happy that he is well enough to do his job, but I really need to hear from him somedays.
This weekend has been pretty good. My oldest son and daughter both learned to ride their bike without training wheels. Talk about driving me nuts. I got out and rode my bike. The kids and I went to my sister in laws for a community cook out. My friend Morgana and her sons went to. The kids were cranky but eventually they all had fun.

This is sucking

The being apart for so many months is starting to get to me. I miss my hubby's voice and his touch and his love. I know that he loves me but some days I just wish he was here to hold me and give me a big ol kiss.

still no word

It has been a week and a half without word from my husband so it seems as if I will mot hear from him for the month. That in itself must mean that his ear and hearing are doing ok. Everytime I hear of injuries here on Fort Campbell I always pray it isn't my man. I am not an overly relidous person but I do say a prayer every night to keep our guys safe over seas. Then I say a special prayer for my husband and thank god for keeping him safe for another day. We are on the down side of this deployment I can't wait till its over. We have seen to many loses of to many good men.
Well I took my son to the dr's today and voiced my concern that he may be ADHD an bipolar at the same time. The hospital here on post at lease took me seriously. They want to involve him in a group setting and watch him before they make any decisions about his condition. He finally reached 60lbs. He did a jig in the hospital because he weighed that much, it was kinda cute. It is sad that we all get excited when he gains just a pound or two. My younger son, whose nine, is the one I look to to set the standard for the other two in the house.